Friday, February 5

keciwaaa...

cant help myself from feeling a bit..nope, A LOT dissappointment this week!!!
kecewa!!kecewa!!kecewa!!
durh~
*sigh*
need to improve myself
need to be strong
need to remind myself not to put high hopes on something
need to be organized
need to be nicer
need to stop complaining
and last but not least..
need to find the right path and dont astray

Thursday, January 21

A Post with No Title

As I think of you,
I smile to myself
This can't be true
You treat me well
With your sweet charm
It's how I fell
You caused this
But no complaints
It's you I'd miss
You're one of the kind
The real thing
A wonderful find

Friday, January 1

stop and relax!!!!


i've just realised that most previous posts are filled with lines and lines of words...

so this time lets take a look on some pictures or creation that i've seen with my own eyes...let the pictures sooth our eyes especially after reading lines and lines of facts in physiology text books.

(eleh min...mcm la ko bukak bku physio tu..lecture notes pn bace skali lalu je)
haha...whateva!!!

cliffs of moher..superb!!

limestones that were created since the ice age


a tree in bray~

castle at the tyne mouth


fireworks at saltwell park~

Thursday, December 24

=)

winter holidays
dublin+bray+galway+claire+newcastle+glasgow
full with 'drama'
due to my lazyness,
im not gonna type all the drama that happen
cukupla sekadar dlm kepala
but
THANX a lot to my FRIENDS
for ur care
and for staying beside me
when i thought i could solve it myself
not to burden others
u guys helped me
and made it a lot more easier
and somehow it felt like family
THANX again
really terharu that night
huhu..(nk wat smiley tp x jmpe)
really appreciate it..
=)

Wednesday, December 9

Denial

finding myself doing unnecessary stuff (with the internet unsurprisingly) with an unfinished assignment lying around tho~..haih~
is this some sort of denial???i dont know either..been stressing out lately
and i cant figure out why...sigh~

these are the stuff i've been doing as an excuse not to face the assignment..

  1. writing this post(obviously)
  2. facebooking
  3. checking the emails 9-10 times
  4. read the forums on LSE
  5. washing the dishes
  6. house hunting
  7. facebooking (again?)
  8. stalking my partner's fb..
  9. watching video clips
  10. have i mentioned replying my emails??
  11. watch movies
  12. playing with things around me..

and the list goes on....

*loves the title of this post...kinda remind me of someone's name....

Wednesday, November 18

ethics class

something very interesting happened today..in ethics class...we had a debate between ourselves on some topics..and during the second debate, we discussed about IVF from islamic point of view, which is totally out of the topic..our ethic's tutor (i forgot his name!!) was interested knowing that in islam, a couple must use their own sperms/eggs for IVF process. We are not allowed to use others/donor's sperms/eggs for fertilization.

Curiously, he asked us whether we(islam) can adopt children and we answered yes! And he asked us what's the difference between adopted child and the child produced from IVF using donors' sperm/egg?? and i answered that the child produced are outside of marriage ,which is prohibited...and then he asked again, "so, it is similar to adultery??as if the child was created from adultery??" and i, without thinking much, nodded my head..

He then said something about the history of adultery, which i can't remember and said that adultery was prohibited because it is like breaking a promise to your partner and bla bla bla (i didn't pay any attention during this part). he asked again, saying that people enjoy the thing when they commit adultery but IVF is not an 'enjoyable' process. in fact, it is a difficult process."

I was thinking about telling him that IVF using donor's sperms/eggs will going to make the 'keturunan' thing get more complicated (you know, marriage between siblings can occur ) but i don't know how to use the correct sentence to make him understand. So i hesitated. Then Iiman
explained to him about the 'keturunan' thing and the marriage between siblings, which made me rase lega cause somebody was there to explained it to him..

Being an ethics tutor had somehow developed his critical thinking, so he asked again, what if the NHS system can ensure you that the donor will not be someone related to you, and the marriage between siblings can be avoided??err.... *complete silence* Fandi tried to explain about the naming in islam (bin/binti), saying that there will be some confusion in it but somehow i think it is not enough to convince him...

i felt very frustrated (geram sangat2) to myself because i am unable to explain those stuff to the tutor, which may trigger him to think about the beauty of islam..nampak sangat x ckup ilmu even to explain simple thing like that..haih~i need to learn more....

oh, yeah..by the way, the debate topics were very interesting..it was different with our(malay) thinking..somehow it has trigger my mind to think from the point of view of other people(locals especially) and some issues here. these are the topics:

  • this house believes that Parliament should pass a law permitting the sale of non-regenerative organs
  • this house believes that couples should not get cheaper IVF treatment in return for egg donation
  • this house believes that the UK should adopt an opt-out system for cadaveric organ donation (trust me, opt-out system was very interesting!!!)
  • this house believes that embryos should not be created unless it is intended that they be implanted
  • this house believes that there should be no need for consent for the use of anonimysed human tissue for research once it has been legitimatey taken as a pathological specimen

you guys should take some times and think about these topics so that you can activate your critical thinking..(yeah, it is like the TOK thingie...)

Saturday, November 14

Sedarllah diri Syamin!!!

i always look down on students(those who studies overseas) who miss home(malaysia) so much!! I never understand why they are homesick, missing malaysia delicacies, and other stuff. And i was thinking, 'Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, cm lebih baik di negara orang je..' or as the saying goes, 'the grass is always greener on the other side'. I mean, except from the absence of family, it is way nicer and happier to live here compared to Malaysia.

I visited at a friend's hostel in castle leazes just now. It was then it dawned upon me that I am wrong. Very wrong indeed. I failed to look on the situation from different side of view. I failed to understand what they felt (empathy). I failed to consider their situation. I failed to fullfill these criteria, which is the criteria of a good doctor.

Just then, it struck me that I was bragging over the rezeki that I have. They don't have the large and comfy flat the way I have it. They don't have the opportunity to cook the way I do. They don't have the peacefullness the way I do. They don't have the comfortable zone, being surrounded with familiar faces the way I do. I realized that I am not being grateful towards the 'nikmat' that Allah SWT gave me. Instead, I was bragging over it by looking down on them. I was 'takabur with all the things or 'kemudahan' that i've got.

And I was grateful to Allah SWT for the opportunity for me to 'menyedarkan diri'. Syukur Alhamdulillah. And also to all the things that make my life much more easier. Thank you Allah..