honey bee

a bee in his colony, always helps around...doing this and that without being told to...and i want to be like one...it's like..what's the point of life it it's not making others' life easier?
in doing something, we need to be sincere(a reminder to myself)....never expect any rewards (aside from pahala) and never regret doing it...do something with your heart..this apply in my life, especially in my studies..i always doing it for the sake of other people..to please them, to satiesfy them, to make them happy...and sometimes..with my hard word (not really hard pun..really) i expect to get good grades and pass with flying colours....(oh...nmpak sgt blajar x ikhlas~) and sometimes i regret taking this path and kept thinking of the 'what if's...this habit is not very healthy and yes, i need to change

So..lets be a honey bee(you can also be a red ant if you want to...or any other animals that you can think of)

MMMmmmmm.......

M is for the million things she gave me

O means only that she's growing old

T is for the tears she shed to save me

H is for her heart of purest gold

E is for her eyes, with love-light shining

R means right, and right she'll always be

Put them all together,

and they spell MOTHER

A word that means the world to me.Wishing all the mothers in the worldA blast and blessfull Mother's DayBeing a full time mother is the highest salaries job....since the payment is pure love.

Mildred B. Vermont

*Poem by Howard Johnson

cuz of you ibu, i 'might' go home this summer...

marah (part 2)

kenapa kite marah???
sbb manusia ade perasaan..and marah is one of the perasaan that we have. kita akan marah bile something yg x best or yg kite x suka happen and menyakitkan hati kite..

tu intro...seriously, da mls nk post kt blog ni..why??more readers, especially yg dikenali...so xbest la nk kasi you guys bace bnde mrapu2 or lagha...kene la tulis something yg berilmiah sket...or at least something yg ade moral value ke...and to write something like that, i have to think and think and think...

honestly, what's with the previous post??
hurm...ntahla...fikir2 blik..pelik gak cmne ley nek angin smpi cmtu skali...maybe disbbkan stress...stress blaja, stress environment, dan mcm2 lg stress kt sini....probs die kecik je..klu cite pn..mst kene gelak...cuz mmg x msuk akal n agak klaka klu fikir blik..tp dah namenye time tu tga stress, maka terhamburlah sume2 bnde yg ntah pape tu...since i'm a girl, probability utk ungkit-mengungkit tu amat la tinggi...setinggi mount Eyjafjallajoekull itu...

so...the moral of the story???
ntah la.. i didnt think much while writing this...tgok la..language pn cm rojak...but i think marah is something negative, something that can drains off ur energy.and klu x silap syaitan suke tgok anak adam ni marah2...cm cite habil dan qabil tu...yela..bile da marah, kite hilang pertimbangan diri... tend utk maki hamun, mengumpat, mencarut, pukul2, hempas2 barang and doing things yg mmbawa kpd keburukan n dosa..

x best la kn buat sume bnde ntah pape ni...bile marah da reda..cnfm mnyesal...rase diri sndiri cm bodoh je wat sume bnde tu...ape la...lg xbest bile musuh kite(syaitan la..) happy smacam je tgok kite tga marah...so, pasni,(refer dri sndiri) sila la cntrol urself...

marah (part 1)

have u ever feel like this??marah yg mungkin lama dipendam and then puff!! terhambur keluar segala isi2 yg ade...i do..felt like u cant control the anger deep inside..and u went on shouting here and there...while at the same time u were shaking badly coz of the anger..OMG!! i'm so totally gonna regret doing that...but at that time, the anger had overpowered ur mind and u dont give a damn to anything else...

i felt so much connected to volcanoes in Eyjafjallajoekull(cant believe i can actually spell this)....hopefully nobody got stranded this time...

questions to think about...

i really dont get it...
can we judge something that we dont really know about???
can we say that cadbury is better than van houtten without really tasting both of them??
can we change people the way we wanted to??
can everybody think the same way that we did??
can we be nice to everybody without hurting ourselves??
can we follow other people although our hearts are against it??
can we do something we dont really like and succed in doing it??
can we be ignorant about something that has nothing to do with us??
can we.......

anybody has any answers for any of the questions above??

anybody??

one time~

enough with misery posts (yep...the last few were miserable). reading those again makes me puke 3 times, laugh, cry(dlm hati je), banging my head on the walls, laugh again, and hate myself even more...

ok, i'm getting crazy with this...stop!!!

no. i'm a human, not a crazy frog.

anyway, apologies to those involved....u know who u are...thanx to me, ur life now is more complicated..no, i'm not proud of my actions, though i may won some awards for being such a 'troublemaker'.(hey, i made life more dramatic and interesting ok??).without me, no conflicts will arise..huhu

"thank you friends, for not pulling my hair till it's bald...or kick me into leazes lake.."

those involved (again??), please accept my sincere apology...nver meant it to happen this way...promise u i wont disturb u again...in no time, i'll be invisible(borrowing harry potter's invisibility cloak)...

and thank you for everything..yes..i mean for everything...i know i cant repay it..(unless i'm super duper rich and u accept money as payment)

haih~life is hard...wish it was simple..and i can live it in a lavish style...

wanna be like this, minus the bottle..(bottle coke xpe..although i dont drink coke =p)

no matter sweet a fantasy is, the truth is always ugly..erkk...

oh...last two weeks a friend told me that i am a silent left-handed...meaning i was born to be left-handed but somehow my parents successfully force me to be right handed...

this is the way to figure out whether u are a lefty or not..

this is somehow true coz i remember my mm told me that when i was little(less than 3years old), i use my left hands to grab anything..and they manage to teach me to use and write with my right hands..yay!! ..hooray to them..i know there's nothing stopping my parents from growing up their children the way they wanted them to be..especially mum..hohoho...see, now im in overseas, studying medicine. 4 years back i'd never imagine myself as a doctor...(sissy, dont tell mom about this part ok??)

haha...what i'm trying to say is...we human can change our environment..and make the best out of it...

we made our own destiny

so, dont look back. nothing u can do if u looked back (and time machines never exists!!)..lets face ahead, creating the best for the future...yay!!

ps: currently i'm banned from the kitchen...what should i do??

pathetic

yep..i've been feeling so pathetic since few days ago...

why??

because i'd found out that my causin had bertunang(what is this word in english??) last 2 weeks through facebook. through pictures can u believe it!!
no, i wasnt being tagged in those flashy pictures. just happened to click on those pics with some familiar names on the description.(imagine what if i didnt click on them...urg..)

so, can i just say i dont care and i dont give a damn??

NO.
whatever it is, they are still part of my family.