one time~

enough with misery posts (yep...the last few were miserable). reading those again makes me puke 3 times, laugh, cry(dlm hati je), banging my head on the walls, laugh again, and hate myself even more...

ok, i'm getting crazy with this...stop!!!

no. i'm a human, not a crazy frog.

anyway, apologies to those involved....u know who u are...thanx to me, ur life now is more complicated..no, i'm not proud of my actions, though i may won some awards for being such a 'troublemaker'.(hey, i made life more dramatic and interesting ok??).without me, no conflicts will arise..huhu

"thank you friends, for not pulling my hair till it's bald...or kick me into leazes lake.."

those involved (again??), please accept my sincere apology...nver meant it to happen this way...promise u i wont disturb u again...in no time, i'll be invisible(borrowing harry potter's invisibility cloak)...

and thank you for everything..yes..i mean for everything...i know i cant repay it..(unless i'm super duper rich and u accept money as payment)

haih~life is hard...wish it was simple..and i can live it in a lavish style...

wanna be like this, minus the bottle..(bottle coke xpe..although i dont drink coke =p)

no matter sweet a fantasy is, the truth is always ugly..erkk...

oh...last two weeks a friend told me that i am a silent left-handed...meaning i was born to be left-handed but somehow my parents successfully force me to be right handed...

this is the way to figure out whether u are a lefty or not..

this is somehow true coz i remember my mm told me that when i was little(less than 3years old), i use my left hands to grab anything..and they manage to teach me to use and write with my right hands..yay!! ..hooray to them..i know there's nothing stopping my parents from growing up their children the way they wanted them to be..especially mum..hohoho...see, now im in overseas, studying medicine. 4 years back i'd never imagine myself as a doctor...(sissy, dont tell mom about this part ok??)

haha...what i'm trying to say is...we human can change our environment..and make the best out of it...

we made our own destiny

so, dont look back. nothing u can do if u looked back (and time machines never exists!!)..lets face ahead, creating the best for the future...yay!!

ps: currently i'm banned from the kitchen...what should i do??

pathetic

yep..i've been feeling so pathetic since few days ago...

why??

because i'd found out that my causin had bertunang(what is this word in english??) last 2 weeks through facebook. through pictures can u believe it!!
no, i wasnt being tagged in those flashy pictures. just happened to click on those pics with some familiar names on the description.(imagine what if i didnt click on them...urg..)

so, can i just say i dont care and i dont give a damn??

NO.
whatever it is, they are still part of my family.

parachute

life is like a long bridge
a wooden bridge...
made of planks
some are strong, steady and can bear heavy things
but some arent that strong, and even make some squeky noises
living a life is like crossing the bridge
sometimes u feel confident
sometimes u feel a lil bit shaky(ok, maybe sometimes a LOT!!)

over the time, the bridge will not be as strong as it used to be..
as the malay proverbs say, 'dimamah usia'
any of those planks can be friable
u might step onto one of those, and puff...fall...

if u accidentally step onto one of those,
but lucky enough not to fall down,
never, ever repeat the same mistake u did
otherwise u'll feel very stupid (yep..it is stupid)
(not to mention u might fall this time)
and u wish u'd never to that
wish u can turn back the time
and sometime, u'd wish u had fall the last time
so u dont have to bear the pain this time..

so ,the moral of the story is...
u decide it urself..

slap me

duh~
can someone slap me in the face right now??
10 times
real hard!!

so that i can wake up from this fantasy land??

someone??? please?????????

erk???

let me warn u before u read this post..this post consist of nonsense piece of writing that's not worth ur time.. im too bored that i've decided to write this..unless u r bored and have nothing to do like me, please do continue...

i'm so lazy these days i even have planned to skip lectures..well that's before i imagine my mom's face...huhu...even tho i went to all lectures (excpt for one) i felt like my soul was never there..especially today's 3 lectures..idk why..hurmm...is it because "motivation" wasnt there??i wonder how am i gonna survive for a month???sometimes i wonder whether ............................(sorry cant publish this part in public)God please help me....

ps: felt like going to spain...who knows if i can find my "motivation" there??..anyone??LOL~

farewell

goodbye mr bob
goodbye vee
may both of u rest in peace.
i know i'd always bullied u guys before tho~
but
do pray 4 me here k...

breathe

on our way to the bus stop:

"Are muslims majority in Malaysia?"
"Yeah, but we do have some other religion like christians and others since Malaysia consists of multiracial community"
"Does muslims practice xbsbfcdjsnsd??"
"Sorry??"
"dsfnjdnfjd"
"erm..sorry??what was that??"(siyesly xpaham die ckp ape)
"dnbdjssdbfds. Sorry,but maybe its different religion"
"yeah. maybe"(still couldnt get what he was saying just now)
"there's one religion that ndjfnsjdsj(again, fail to catch his words) and they didnt eat beef"
"oh, that's hindu"
"yeah.i was trying to remember what the religion was. Hindus are Indians, arent they?"
"yep"
"yeah, yeah..that's what i thought."

*Silence*

"the muslims have Quran, am i rite?? "
"sorry??"(listening isnt as easy as reading ok..and his accent didnt help either)
"muslims have Quran?"
*ttbe teringat post farid wajdi yg bace smalam*
"owh.yeah.u r rite."
"and they have someone like Jesus, or something"
"urm.."(couldnt catch what the question was)
"like Prophet Muhammad??"
"yeah.Prophet Muhammad is the messanger of God"

*another silence*

and again teringat kt post farid yg state that his partner learned about different religions in school. also teringat aritu ade a bunch of school kids visiting the uni mosque and learned a bit about our religion.

"did u learn about all this religion in school??"
"most schools teach the students about some religions. but i was unfortunate because my school didnt do that." he mentioned again something about rugi die xdpt blaja and pendedahan psal religion stuff, but i cant remember the exact word he used.
"oh...so how did you find out about Quran, Muhammad and all those stuff??"
"well, mostly thru tv, and i chatted with some people"

wow.impressive. imagine u can remember all that(about others religion) just by ur environment network, not learning. impressed with his determination to learn, and know about other religion aside from his religion only.

there was like thousands of questions in my mind that i wanted to fire him with, but the lactic acid that accumulated in my both legs are spreading to the upper part of body. and i've got hutang oxygen that kept on increasing.*sigh*
and he said something about missing the bus before i can catch my breath.huh~

why does he has to walk that fast??
*sigh*